It really sucks...
...to come back to work from a three week absence and everybody is so cheery and wants to say hi and talk you up...


...when all I want is to crawl in a hole and ignore the world for a good long while.



You can't really just come out in a corporate environment and tell people to leave you the fuck alone because you've had your heart stepped on and all you want is to be ignored so you can make some attempt at shutting off the rage of emotions swirling about in your guts.


...They don't look kindly on that.






I keep vacillating between locking the big entry I made last night or not. On one hand, I don't want to hurt anyone if they happen to get wind of it and misinterpret, but on the other hand, I grow weary of locking up my journal and cutting some people out who read from other sites.

So...if I offend, please forgive. That's the last thing I want.


EDIT: the girl. the GIRL. If I upset THE GIRL, I'm sorry. I've been trying to offend you fuckers on my f-list for the past 8 years without success. You're still hanging around. I've pretty much given up on offending you lot. ;)

...thanks for the permission though. I'll keep it in mind for future entries.